Wednesday looked like it was going to be a good day. It started off a bit hectic but when lunch came around I was able to bag the last portion of Chicken Katsu Curry from the staff canteen. I had been waiting for this to reappear on the menu since I started so I was super excited about it (especially as it has become the dish I crave). It was going to be a good day.
Then my day came crashing down around me.
Luckily events in my life have taught me that this is merely a road bump in life. At the time it may seem like the worst time in the world but you can’t go up unless you’ve been down…unless you are climbing a mountain, then you can keep going up but eventually you will have to come down. But going down is good.
Anyways, sometimes you need to have a moment of crisis to realise what is important to you.
I had my moment five years ago when I got fired (sorry made redundant) while suffering with depression. At the time it was extremely hard, I was at rock bottom. I had descended that valley at quite a pace and did not have a positive outlook on my present or future. That moment when I found out that I was at notice of redundancy was hard, it was also the worst it got.
From that point on my life has been on an upwards trajectory. Firstly I realised that part of what was making me feel bad was my job, and I developed a new life rule. “No job should ever make you cry with sadness”. That is also my new rule for life, I don’t do (or stick at) anything that makes me feel bad. If it is not going to improve then call it quits.
I then got a job where someone introduced me to my future wife, the person who would help me parent. None of that would have happened without that bottoming out. I could imagine that I would have met someone else and had some other child, but that is both unlikely and I wouldn’t want to swap the ladies in my life for anyone else.
There have been small dips since I was sunk, but they have been stumbles, and I may not be racing up the mountain of life as fast as I used to (because exercise is tiring) but the process has taught me that even if i can’t control the pace I may have some impact on the direction.
When you look down at your feet, being careful where to tread, you may find you are quickly descending. It is only by looking up and reaching for what you want that you can climb up that mountain.