Teamwork, collaboration, playing nicely with others. In my new job these are all traits I’m starting to realise I don’t have. I like being thrown in at the deep end and left to fend for myself, I want to achieve through discovery and tenacity not through training and picking up an existing process.
This has come to light from my new job, mostly I have always been the analyst on a team of marketeers so had lots of control of how I presented the data and a lot of freedom to go and explore. Now I have joined a team of like-minded souls I have gone from big fish to little fish.
Like most things you don’t realise what you had until someone comes along and puts up a parking lot. It’s as simple as being allowed to have control over the colour of the bars on the charts I use. Now I have to negotiate and compromise to create a unified team style, but the style we are choosing sucks.
When I work on my own I can do as I please, and I do what I believe is right and best. Now I have to play with others I have to learn new skills of patience and will need a mouth guard to protect my teeth as I grit them.
I like being left alone, I want to go and find out new things and get my claws into a project. Now I am given tasks from a list based upon the time I have and not what interests me. Anything that does pique my curiosity now has to be discussed and diluted via committee. Either that or I have to follow the guidelines for a process for a task. I don’t learn through rote but through play.
The only upside is that there is competition, I love competing against others as it brings out the best in me. Not necessarily the best aspects but certainly my better work.
Do I feel I made a mistake in moving, or perhaps just a little too tired to think about it clearly? Maybe a combination of both. In one sense I felt I was stagnating in my old role and they didn’t seem to care or fight for me to stay (maybe if they had who knows what I would have said).
It doesn’t matter now, I have jumped from the diving board and need to decide which side of the water surface I’m on.
Tell us about a time when you were left on your own, to fend for yourself in an overwhelming situation — on the job, at home, at school. What was the outcome?
Source: Sink or Swim