I probably think that this is a secret and that nobody else knows (but I’m sure they do – or they will now), but I have a talent for only saying what I want to say and at a certain time. I think about what it is I want to say, and how you will hear it. I am willing to lie and change (or completely ignore) the subject; especially with my feelings.
My words, and the way I say them are chosen for a reason. I am a Machiavellian orator.
People who may know me will find that funny, I’m sure I have a reputation for being a loudmouth and for fronting my opinions. There are certain areas that I am willing to stand up and be heard. I have, more than once, stood in front of my peers and ‘superiors’ (just because you earn more than me does not mean you are superior – and yes; I have told someone that as well) and told them what I think is going wrong. Being called a Little-Lenin by a director is one of my proudest achievements, and I’m sure my trade-unionist Dad is proud of me.
However, I don’t really do politics and I am willing to call out those who do. I abhor yes men and brown-nosers, I may never climb the corporate chain but I don’t really care. I prefer to do what is right, as opposed to what is seen to be right and is best for appearances. I don’t want anyone to tell me what they think I want to hear, I want them to tell me what I need to know.
I am guilty of doing this in my personal life though, but in a different way.
The most pointless question in the world is the old “how are you?”. This question can come in many forms, from the “u ok?” to the “hi, how are things going”. I get asked this numerous times a day.
The answer I’m going to give is either going to be:
a) Fine, how are you? – This is a bit of truth-omission. What I really mean is “I feel like a piece of crap, I have no self-esteem and I am really struggling to put on a pretence that everything is fine, how are you?”. All I am doing is removing everything before the word ‘fine’.
b) So how was last night/your weekend/day at work? – This is simply avoiding the subject, a deliberate attempt to change the subject. Some people realise they are being manipulated, others don’t. It’s a very simple technique, and any question will do.
Sometimes I will answer honestly, however the more likely you are to give me pity or are the cause of lack of fineness the better chance you are going to get either a) or b). And no, I will not tell you if it is because you are pitying or annoying me.
Then again I am a Machiavellian speaker.
Perhaps I have only told you half-truths, or directed you to think in a certain way.
I have a talent for that.
What is your worst quality?